Commulife

Today, my fellow blogger and I had a pretty serious meeting with some pretty interesting people. I say it's serious because it will most certainly define the next year of our lives, and probably the rest of our lives in some sort of way. We're planning on moving in together, and with two friends, to live in intentional community. Sometimes I think about what will be different from just 4 people moving in together as roommates--I'm not really sure. Deliberately spending time together will be one part. Caring about the other people's crap will be another. Praying together, eating together, challenging each other, not ignoring problems but facing them head on. Forgiving each other, and asking for forgiveness. I guess getting intentionally that close to people will be interesting--it's strange to think that everyone I meet is just as complex as me, has just as many conflicting emotions and likes and dislikes. Oh but that's exciting. I am going to get to know these three people--all of whom I know already in varying degrees--so very well. Will this experience living in community, which I believe is the best way to live (never having lived in an intentional community before) affirm that belief, or destroy it? Will this be an experience that I look back on as the time I decided living in isolation and becoming a hermit or a cloistered nun is the best thing for me, or will it be the first of many experiences with community, each enriching and difficult and challenging and beautiful? I don't know. I guess I'll find out. Tomorrow we look for apartments.

BAH! sometimes I think about this thing and it makes me LAUGH!

So I just checked my last blog--my friend wasn't buying me a christmas present. Or maybe she forgot to give it to me, but i did not get that from her for christmas. But I dunno why she was being sneaky then. It's kind of strange. Hm. What an interesting situation.

So today I was thinking about rejoicing in other people's gifts, and what a cool thing that is. I wish I were better at it! Cause if everything we're good at and everything we have is a gift from God, then whatever you have is also a gift from him, and so we're both equally blessed by both our gifts, right? So I should be just as happy that you're good at guitar as if I were, because I get to hear beautiful music. And I should be so pleased that you are a good baker because I get to eat delicious baked goods. And I should be so overjoyed that you are so good at drawing because you make funny cartoons and interesting art. I should be. I'm usually less pleased than I would like about your gifts! But I think probably that says a lot about how we're supposed to see our gifts and what we're good at--as something that we have so that we can share it with others. And that's really lovely, I think. And it means that we can't de-value ourselves, we can't say that we're not actually good at something (especially if it's false humility and we know we actually are) because the point of a gift is not to bring praise to the gifted, it's to be shared with EVERYONE! What a great thing! Haha! Lovely.

Anyway. This blog makes me laugh because we were so excited about it for about a week. Yep.

OH MY GOODNESS CHRISTY WE HAVE A BLOG!!!!!!!!!

Today I was at HMV for the first time in a while. It was fun. I think my friend bought me a christmas present while I was right there. That was nice of her. She was pretty sneaky about it.

hey! I just remembered this existed

I"m totally not really a bloggy person. That is probably obvious as I haven't really blogged here and niether did my fellow blogger/short term enthusiast :)

Oh well, maybe I'll try and post once a blue moon when something interesting happens that no one excpet myself is particularily interested in.

Today was not a great day of exitment. the most exciting thing I did was go to the drug store to buy Shampoo etc. for my upcoming trip. I actually enjoyed it quite a bit. I love buying lip balm and shampoo and tooth paste and all those things that I tend to let be chosen for me.

Went to the libary today

I got my acceptance letter for collage today and I'm SUPER happy.
It's a crazy feeling to know I'm actually almost out of high school. There were times when it felt like an eternity.

I had nice phone conversations with two of my friends about classes and being excited/afraid to make new friends. It's just weird to think I won't be seeing the same people's faces every day Like i do now.

I went to the library and took out a stack of like 5 books. I felt like such a nerd...I just wanted to get out of there so no one would see my trucking them around. They're all easy to read books....I was tempted to try a classic but I didn't feel like looking for one. I guess just because it's easy to read something doesn't diminish it's value. Well at any rate I feel rich now.

I have a pile of books borrowed from people but I don't really feel like reading any of those at the moment. I've read quite a few of them already so for the most part theres no hurry

Well life is going on. It's now officially spring and i am officially in love with the wind and the air and the way I feel when I go out the door and realize that while it's still cold, the sun is warm.

~Linen

It's so encouraging to know theres always more people out there to meet.

I love meeting new people. Like truly Honestly. It's so great.
It gives you more faith in the rest of the world.
It's like you've just gotten access to a whole new point of view and life and ya.!!! I just really like talking to/ getting to know new interesting people.

Playing games with people is a good way to get to know someone. Today I played two different games with friends (and new people I'd never met) and it was fun, having common ground.

anyhow....today was nice.

~Linen

Reading a lot lately

People in books are so much easier to deal with. Don't get me wrong, i'm not anti-social but sometimes it just seems that if people would take you at face value and not judge you, life would be so much easier.
When you're reading a book, you can get to know the characters intimitely without the fear that they're going to turn around and laugh at you.

But maybe...
Maybe real life friendships are valuable BECAUSE they're risky. You never have a gurentee that you won't get stabbed in the back, so you have to trust yourself and trust them.
They weren't kidding when they said Relationships need Trust.

and while this entry makes it sound like I"ve had horrible trust breaking experiences all my life, I really haven't. Small bad experiences, but nothing bad enough to shake my faith in people. At least not yet...lol

I just read
The Truth by Terry Prattchet

am reading
The truth about forever by Sarah Dessin


~Linen